Archive | December, 2011

New Year – New Start

30 Dec

Well, 2011, it’s time we part ways. You’ve been as sucky as you’ve been great. I’ve both loved and hated you. But, now I’m ready to move on to greener pastures.

2011 and I, as you can tell, had a love/hate relationship. The year started off pretty crappy – everyone I knew was getting pregnant just by looking at their significant other and I couldn’t get pregnant no matter how hard I tried. I met my fertility specialist Dr. M and got what I thought was good news. Then, after B’s tests, we found out we had another set back on the road to babyville. The first half of the year was filled with doctor’s appointments and disappointments. Oh, and add B getting laid off to the mix. Good stuff.

May 1 rolls around. B and I head to the beach to celebrate our 1 year wedding anniversary. We decide to take the year off of TTC. It was getting to be too much and was really effecting our new marriage.

Enter the YEAR OF FUN! After deciding to take the year off, we had a ton of fun. We went to his parent’s lake house almost every weekend. We took a trip to the beach with my family. We even planned a trip to San Francisco in September for my 28 birthday. Over the summer all the babies were born and all I could feel was love for these little babies and happiness for my friends and loved ones.

In November, as you know, we decided to jump back on the baby train earlier than expected and had yet another set back. After some researching of the insurance company and some prayer, we decided to go ahead and pay the 6k and fight it after the fact. I’m fairly certain we have a great shot at winning it and getting paid back. And, in the grand scheme of things, 6k is a small price to pay for finally being able to have a baby.

So, I’m ready for 2012. I’m sure there will be some setbacks and some hard times. But, if I’ve learned anything from 2011 it’s that everything will work out exactly how it’s supposed to. There’s a plan out there for me, and B, and us – even if we’re unsure of exactly what it is.

Here’s some photos in a look back at our year!


Celebrating our anniversary



Lake fun



San Francisco


Miscellaneous Monday

12 Dec

Did I spell miscellaneous right? If not, oh well.

I know I haven’t posted in a while. It’s cause I haven’t really had much to say. I try to come up with clever posts, but I just can’t. Or, I think I’ll take pictures and I don’t. I also realize I do all of my posting at work, and I can’t very well bring in my camera and start uploading pics onto the old work computer, now can I?

So, I figured I’d do a little miscellaneous post and cover all the little non important posts that have been floating around in my noggin.

  • I got my Christmas groove back this year. Last year I was in a MAJOR funk – going through all my infertility junk, finding out that everyone and their brother was pregnant, and spending my first Christmas ever away from my family. It was not pretty. I didn’t even up up our tree and it was our first Christmas as a married couple and in our house. But, this year, I’m back bitches. The house is decorated within and inch of it’s life (if, by house you mean living room, which I do), I’ve been listening to my Glee Holiday Pandora station for the better part of a month. I’m almost entirely done shopping. Hooray for Christmas! Oh, and the best part, it’s our Christmas to spend with my family, making it that much better!
  • B and I went shopping yesterday to the amazingness that is Nordstrom Rack. I was in heaven. Except that B is not a good shopper, so he pulled me out of there way before I was ready. But, reedeming him, was the almost purchase of an amazing pair of Tory Burch heels. But, they only size we could find was a half freakin size too big. I tried to will them to not slip off my heel. No dice. Sad face. They were beautiful. Sigh.
  • Speaking of getting my Christmas groove back, my weekend was filled with Christmas delightfulness. Saturday, my friends came over and the 4 of us drank champagne and made cookies. That night, I joined B for a party with his friends. That was not so delightful. But, you know, I had to be a good wife and stuff so I had to go. Then, yesterday, after the holiday shopping, I made Christmas cookies for our cookie swap tomorrow. I’m also going to make more Christmas cookies tonight. Mmmmm….
  • I’m still figuring out how to tackle B’s latest surgery setback. His parents kind of lit a fire under us to fight it on the front end rather than pay the 6 g’s before and hope to get reimbursed. So, we’ll see how that turns out. Also, I hate insurance companies.
  • I got some new perfume yesterday. I LOVE it! It’s Chanel Coco Madameoiselle. It smells so feminine. And, the best part, it sticks around all day. I can still smell it on me. Not so with the other perfumes I’ve tried.

Ok, I think that concludes my brain dump.

To thank you all for sticking around, here are a few iPhone pictures to prove my Christmas groove!


How sweet are those babies in their Christmas jammies! That was our Christmas card this year.



How awesome is it that I got the cat in a Santa outfit!


2 Dec

Yet another pop culture reference in my title. Grey’s Anatomy – you know, from back in the early days when it was still good and George and Izzie were still on the show.

I said I’d keep the blog updated with all of our fertility stuff as it arises. After multiple conversations with the doctor’s office and the insurance company, I felt pretty good about getting B’s surgery covered. At least most of it. The procedure to actually fix the blockage may or may not be covered. I went in with high hopes, and called to schedule the surgery. They called back and said that we’d have to pay the uncovered part up front. How much would we have to pay, you ask? SIX THOUSAND EFFING DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Up front. Before Christmas. Before they’d even schedule the friggin surgery. Six. Thousand. Dollars. Yes, they take a payment plan. Yes, it still has to be paid in full before they’ll schedule it.

I felt like we were making some headway with this thing. I felt like we might actually be able to afford it. Now, I just don’t know. I know that in the grand scheme of things, 6 grand to have a baby is nothing. But, for people who don’t have that kind of money, it’s a lot to swallow. When we started actively TTC a year and a half ago, I figured I’d take a round or two of Clomid and that would be that. Easy peasy. I feel like for every step forward we take in this process, we’re blown back 10. It’s so discouraging and frustrating. I know I said I’d trust the process and keep the faith. BUt, right now, I’m really struggling with it.

In other news, my friend P90X lasted all of one day. We’re awesome.